You think, eventually I’ll be better, surely I can’t possibly feel this sad for ever?”. This unbelievable, profound sadness. So I hope that’s the grief. “Bernie was the centre of everything. After a mastectomy, chemotherapy and a course of herceptin, doctors said she was cancer-free. “I’d never even considered asking anyone to be my wife until I met her.

Show 0 comments 1 /1 Bernie Nolan… “You can see when she got really poorly, her handwriting gets a bit shaky. I hope that was the worst. Touching the teardrop pendant that hangs on a delicate silver chain around her neck, Erin Doneathy smiles, remembering her mum. “I loved being married, but that’s only because I was married to Bernie.

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Sometimes I read from start to finish and other days I’ll just flick through and land on different pages.”. Like his daughter, drummer Steve asks himself what his wife of 18 years would do in his shoes... and often finds the answer doesn’t quite match up with his choices. “It’s like she’s always with me,” she says. Speaking publicly for the first time since Bernie’s death, she tells how she keeps alive her mum’s memory by reading a diary lovingly handwritten for her by the singer in the final months of her life. I hit rock bottom, but I’m coming back up.”. Sometimes I read from start to finish and other days I’ll just flick through and land on different pages.”. I hope that was the worst. Not because she didn’t love me as much as I loved her, but because that was her approach to life.

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